social life?

i don't have one. i don't really care for one is what i've realized. i'm only 18, but i don't care for meeting people, i'm just not social or don't care to be. i'm too busy. sure, they can make a "difference" in my life, but i really don't care because regardless...i know exactly what i want to do with my life, and i am content with my life, maybe not with every little aspect but those can't be fixed. at least, not by anyone new, not by going out, not by doing anything but waiting i guess. i ate with gene last night and told him what i was up to and realized that i really just don't care about going out because i don't feel productive. i told him the only times i enjoy going out is to either eat or go shopping. i do enjoy being around my friends but, i just can't stand doing nothing sometimes and i can't stand being away from work or schoolwork. if it's less fun than me staying at home watching tv or reading a book then please, don't. i'd rather be working. i'd rather be reading. i'd rather do homework. i just don't care about going out or having a social life because even if i meet new people and make friends they won't there for me when i need them or be there in the far future. and i enjoy stability so i'd rather not waste my time.